Saturday, June 30, 2012

Second Conference - Virginia

Last week, I went for a conference in Virginia Tech. It's situated in Blacksburg, a small town pretty much in the middle of nowhere. So it's a bit hard to get to there. I flew to Charlotte airport and drove 3 hours up to Blacksburg. I'd arrive pretty late, so I wanted to be inconspicuous on the road. My reserved ford focus was not available so they gave me a Mustang! I associate Mustangs with cheap show-offs and it certainly attracted attention. So just like that, my plan to be inconspicuous went up in flames. As I was driving, I felt like I was in 'no country for old men'. A bit scared. If it was a good drive then I'd be ok, but the stupid thing had no power (I thought it's supposed to be all about power). On the freeway it didn't seem to want to go over 70mph. And when climbing a hill, speed dropped fast - pushing the gas pedal lead to at least a 3 seconds delay, so just like in cycling I anticipate hills when driving this thing. And while descending, speed accumulated fast - dangerously. I was listening to the radio to keep myself from dozing off, but the stations were all country music (which I like but it does not wake me up) and at one point, the only station that was in reception was a religious station, where the songs had God, savior and Jesus in them and later the host was discussing the bible....I arrived at the hotel at around midnight and was exhausted. Spending a whole day travelling is so tiring and such a waste of time.

The next day I registered for the conference, they gave each of us a BPA free water bottle. This was to be used for water filling stations around campus, they had filtered water and had a digital count of how many plastic bottles have been saved from landfills by using them. I love this. Anyway, fast forward to my talk....

My talk was in the morning, in my session there were 4 speakers, I was the third. I arrived early to upload my talk onto the central computer with the help of a volunteer. After I was done setting up my presentation, the girl who was volunteering came back to ask me where I was from 'because you are so pretty'. I don't know if this is advantageous in the research industry, cos I think it just makes me look stupid. At the end of my talk, I was answering a question from an old professor, I'm pretty sure he just smirked at my answer. My talk went pretty good. There was some problems with displays due to transfer from mac to pc, I'll convert everything to pdf next time. I'm pretty surprised, because as I was waiting for my turn to talk, my heart was pounding, however as soon as I got up and began talking, I was completely at ease. This is certainly a good practice run for my upcoming more important talk.

During the conference, I tried to go to talks, but if I wasn't interested in the topic to begin with - it just gets so boring to the point where I had to catch myself from falling asleep. It's very one dimensional. I like poster sessions more, where there was a huge selection of topics and I can ask questions. I love asking questions. There was a guy who was presenting something that I used to work on, so I asked him a few questions. He was pretty rude and acted like my questions were rudimentary and trivial - actually I don't think he even took the time to listen to them. Later he found out that I was from Caltech - the change in expression was priceless and everything I say was now analyzed word by word and so meaningful.

I talked with some of the company representatives at the booths. The companies were DASF, Dew and P & F. They all don't do pharmaceutical research. Apparently from insider information, the big companies are all waiting for each other to make the first move and once they make a profit, the others would follow suit. There was a guy at DASF who worked in both Germany and US, I asked him what are the differences between working in these countries. He told me some differences but said that he was amazed people in both countries just love to work, they'd work over time just cos they love what they are doing! He was so excited when he said this. Perhaps it's just me, but the thought of working over hours does not turn me on the slightest.

I had a few hours to spare so I went for a hike to Cascade Falls. It's listed as a must visit for anyone in the Blacksburg area. The hike was indeed very beautiful, much better than what LA can offer and comparable to NZ. I went on the lower trail, jumping over rocks was fun. But soon, I got extremely bored, yet if I stop and look closely around me - nature is so fascinating in itself.

Then it was time for me to drive back to the airport. I drove through Blue Ridge Parkway, it was absolutely beautiful. As I was driving through this amazing landscape and listening to country music - I was sure that I'd miss America. One of the main reasons why I want to move to Germany is because people there are more straightforward and not fake. Yet, the small towns that I have been to, Portland Oregon and now Blacksburg Virginia, people are genuinely nice and there is no pretense. Also people are respectable towards others. For instance, while driving, they'd change lanes if they are holding up someone and while hiking, they'd make sure that they don't get into other people's way. Not like most people in LA, who feels that their presence needs to be felt by the entire universe. My previous judgement of America being fake was definitely too general. So now I'm actually at a toss up between whether moving to Germany or stay in the US. It's not a good feeling to have so many options, because I always doubt whether I'm making or have made the best decision. Anyway, we'll see how everything pans out.

I forgot to mention that there are many tall, fit and manly guys in VT. It's so refreshing to see that there are NORMAL people out there - yep, I need to get out of here asap :)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Cycling and Bike Upgrade

Yesterday I rode 39-GMR loop (backside GMR) with the club. There were an A and a B group, A group is for fast riders, B group for slower. I joined the A group of course. Encouraged from last week's group ride, I tried to push myself more on this ride. Yet I still couldn't keep up with the guys. On top of this, there was another girl in the ride who seemed to have no problem! She's not even in proper cycling gear but do have huge thighs. Before this, the only girl in the club who is faster than me is the lady who complimented me, but she is a pro elite so I'm not going to compare with her - not just yet. The guys are faster than me, but there is a 19 or so years old kid who is even faster. He is trying to turn pro and he would always cycle back and forth waiting for us. I thought if I was at his speed I'd have no problem being a pro. But apparently and I quote 'Lesley Paterson would kick him in the butt in cycling'. She is a pro triathlete, not a pro cyclist! Ahh, so now I have to beat the guys and beat that kid before even talking about turning pro. As well, pro cyclists ride 400-500 miles per week, and 250 miles per week during off season. I'm not even doing 100 miles a week - how could I even possibly consider turning pro! After all these realizations it's suffice to say that I was rather upset with myself. I know I've got 2.5 years before cycling full time, but I need to start now to build a good base.

So I went for another ride this morning - I did the GMR-39 loop. Last month when I did it, it took me 2 hours and 50 min excluding rest. I was hoping to shave off 10 min today if possible.

At the start of the ride, I nearly got run over....I was inside a round about and a car was moving into it. Knowing how stupid LA drivers are, I'm always careful - so I watched him, sure enough, he kept on moving forward as I was riding past him. So I yelled at him, and that was how he stopped. I looked back at him to make sure he's not trying to run me over again. He kept on apologizing as he drove past. I nodded to acknowledge it. But saying sorry would not be bloody enough if he had crashed into me!

During the ride I tested out my new wheelset, tires and cassette. At a time when people pay hundreds to shave off a few grams, I just upgraded my bike and gained 400 grams....it kills me. It's the wheels that weighed more. I got these wheels for $130, apparently they are of $300-$500 quality. But they are so much heavier than my previous Maddux R3.0 wheels which came with the bike. I couldn't find the price for these, but with my bike being $1000, I can't imagine the wheels being more than a hundred. Long story short, I couldn't compare the weight of these wheels until they have arrived. I always thought that the more expensive the wheels, the lighter they would be. Anyway, I know that at this stage, I'm not limited by equipment, rather it's by my own abilities. I think I do like my new wheelset, it seems to roll well and is quite aero.

My upgraded bike

I also tried to climb out of the saddle more. It's still hard to do this especially on high gradients (when I actually need to climb out of the saddle). I'll keep practicing on my trainer at home. Speaking of which, now I realized why I was having so much saddle problem. While practicing on the trainer I discovered that I should sit backwards more, so the weight is mostly supported on the seat bones. The saddle pain is a lot less, yet after being on the saddle for a couple of hours it still hurts. As I got off the bike, I could feel blood flowing again - it felt so good...

Oh yes, I did 2 hr 36 min today, 14 min off from a month ago. Hmm I wonder why?! Perhaps it's a combination of me pushing harder, climbing out of saddle, bike upgrade (which may have slowed me down actually, not sure) and/or just getting stronger. :)

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Pro Cycling

I've decided to get into pro cycling. The reason why I'm doing cancer research is so that I could help people. Yet, I want to do something for myself too. And I really want to take the time out to get a taste of pro cycling. I don't want to be too old or on my death bed wishing that I could have done this - so why not do it now?! The plan is to graduate and work for 2 years and have some savings for a 4 years (or until my maximum potential is reached) career in pro cycling, after which time I'd go back into industry.

I'm very impulsive and there have been a lot of things that I really wanted to do for a short period of time but later on, changed my mind. However in this case, I've been entertaining the pro cycling idea for some weeks now, and the desire is getting stronger. I think what was really stopping me was that I don't know if I'd be physically suitable for this. Yet, my first bike ride was up GMR and I've ridden up Mt Baldy ski lifts. And there hasn't been a single person who hasn't been impressed with my cycling (although I generally take such compliments with a grain of salt). As well in running, which I've been doing on and off for 3 months now (due to injury) I got top 28% in my age group in my first half marathon. I think my ride up Big Tujunga with the club yesterday finally convinced me.

I had done this ride 4 months ago with the club and I remember it been quite tiring. There were 2 other girls who also went, one was faster than me and the other slower. This time when I went up, I was surprised that the climb was over so soon and I didn't feel that I had a good workout. The same 2 girls were now way behind me. They thought I've been training hard, nope, a long ride on the weekend and 2 runs during the week - definitely not enough training by anyones standard. So I think with proper training and dedication, I should be fit enough.

In terms of cycling skills, which I still greatly lack. I can now drumroll....drink from my water bottle while cycling. As well, I'm working on climbing out of the saddle to increase efficiency as well as to help with the saddle problem. I suck at climbing out of the saddle, after just a few strokes I could feel lactic acid build up. So I got a trainer at home. I plan to train on it for 30 min (especially working on climbing out of the saddle) on days when I'm not doing a long ride or runs.

On a very unrelated note, I received my first A+ in Caltech! My final course here - a pretty nice finish :)

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Randomness

Yah, finally, and I mean FINALLY I finished all my course work. It's been a long time coming - 4 years. This term I took my last course, advanced biochem. There were only 3 students including myself and 2 professors which was rather interesting. I had no clue about all the biochem pathways and the professors expected that too. Yet they were surprised that I asked all the right questions and have looked through things before class! And just because I am in ChE, the professors assumed that I am smart.....ahh hmmm, not sure about that! Thankfully, I didn't prove them wrong, they said how good a job I've done (cf the others), but everyone would get good grades...I say wtf to the last part.

I have so much work to do, but I'm getting quite bored. I really like what I'm doing and it's possible implications in curing cancer, but I hate being stuck indoors. When I'm bored, I fantasize about what I'd rather be doing. I love cycling, I love the outdoors and I love travelling, what does this equal - why, a career in pro cycling of course!! That would be the life! But unfortunately, women pro cycling isn't very big, that's because they can never out compete men. On top of this, there is the bloody saddle problem. If there is a God, he is been quite unjust. Still, I think I'd go for it for at least 4 years to reach my full potential. And since cycling is purely physical, I'd need some mental stimulation too. So during my pro cycling career, I'd do lots of reading, mainly on human psychology. I'm fascinated by how complicated and contradictory the mind is. Like for me, due to circumstances when I was growing up, now I have trust issues. Whereas my sister is totally opposite, she easily gives trust away. In both situations, we have over compensated. The mind also seems contradictory. For instance, someone who has an alcoholic parent would subconsciously choose to be in a relationship with another alcoholic. It seems contradictory, but it's actually just them playing out childhood roles in order to overcome the trauma. In a sense, all the contradictory nature can be explained. I love trying to understand undoubtedly one of the most complicated phenomena in the world - the human mind. If I have a body double, I'd do exactly what I have proposed above - pursue a career in pro cycling while studying psychology. In fact, if I have less self control, I'd go and do it NOW! But since I am so bloody rational and all about the big picture, ie hoping that in my life I would contribute in changing human life for the better - so I'll stick with that. Sometimes I feel that I have such strong impulses which are kept at bay by my even stronger rationality.

On a side note, I just came back from a social with the club. I was talking with one of the club members. In the middle of the conversation, she said 'you are beautiful, your face.' I was shocked, she continued 'sorry but I have to say this...especially that smile of yours, every time I look at you, I'm taken by you...' While I just stood there feeling SO awkward and wishing the ground would swallow me up. I didn't know what to say other than 'thank you'. Yet to say thank you means that I agree with her which I don't. Oh and before you get all excited, she is a married women so there are clearly no motives :) Anyway, I'll try to forget about what she said or pretend it never happened so it won't be awkward the next time I see her.

On another side note, for my conference in Berlin, I'm going to do an oral presentation! I think I'll be the only one doing an oral in my track! They asked me for a biosketch and a photo to post on their website!! I'm stoked and so excited :D