I am very confused and sad. I don't know if I want to move to Germany anymore. Like I mentioned in my previous post, the main reason why I want to live in Germany is because people there are more straightforward. Yet, there are at least 2 small towns in the US that offers the same thing (and people are also genuinely nice).
The other reason why I want to live in Germany is because it's surrounded by other countries, and travelling is so easy - I love to experience and learn about different cultures, their beliefs and practices. Yet, having being to around 6 states in the US, they are pretty different too. So here are some things about Germany that I really don't like. Germans are known to be more racist and less accepting of different ideas and values. For instance, when I was relating to the old German guy from DASF that a friend of mine who is applying there was asked for his high school transcript. The German guy said, when you apply just give it to them, and have them translated. I asked, translate into German? He said into English. This assumption is very rude. And them being less accepting of change or new things is reflected by having rules that must be followed or things that must be done a certain way. I love my freedom and the ability to do whatever I want. Driving around especially in the middle of nowhere helps me to feel free. Yet with 80 millions people living in Germany in an area half the size of Texas, this can't be easily done. The thought of living in this cramped country is suffocating. I've also learnt recently that Germans smoke A LOT - I hate smoking and dislike people who smoke because 1. I get headaches from cigarette smokes and 2. I think people who smoke are inconsiderate in that they are making others around them smoke passively. As well, I have to learn German - which I have to confess that I totally suck at.
Ok, so it may seem that I'm saying all the bad things about Germany, but the fact is that I was very optimistic and tried to think of only the good things. And I thought that I have made my decision about going to Germany so why think negatively?! However after finding out that I had generalized way too much about American people, I'm seriously having second opinions. I'm still going to go to the Berlin conference in a couple of months, I'll see how I like it there first hand. This is also meant to be my job finding opportunity. But if I don't like it there, I'll just look for jobs here. Which opens a whole can of worms in itself, cos I really don't know where I want to live in the US......so bloody confused.
The other reason why I want to live in Germany is because it's surrounded by other countries, and travelling is so easy - I love to experience and learn about different cultures, their beliefs and practices. Yet, having being to around 6 states in the US, they are pretty different too. So here are some things about Germany that I really don't like. Germans are known to be more racist and less accepting of different ideas and values. For instance, when I was relating to the old German guy from DASF that a friend of mine who is applying there was asked for his high school transcript. The German guy said, when you apply just give it to them, and have them translated. I asked, translate into German? He said into English. This assumption is very rude. And them being less accepting of change or new things is reflected by having rules that must be followed or things that must be done a certain way. I love my freedom and the ability to do whatever I want. Driving around especially in the middle of nowhere helps me to feel free. Yet with 80 millions people living in Germany in an area half the size of Texas, this can't be easily done. The thought of living in this cramped country is suffocating. I've also learnt recently that Germans smoke A LOT - I hate smoking and dislike people who smoke because 1. I get headaches from cigarette smokes and 2. I think people who smoke are inconsiderate in that they are making others around them smoke passively. As well, I have to learn German - which I have to confess that I totally suck at.
Ok, so it may seem that I'm saying all the bad things about Germany, but the fact is that I was very optimistic and tried to think of only the good things. And I thought that I have made my decision about going to Germany so why think negatively?! However after finding out that I had generalized way too much about American people, I'm seriously having second opinions. I'm still going to go to the Berlin conference in a couple of months, I'll see how I like it there first hand. This is also meant to be my job finding opportunity. But if I don't like it there, I'll just look for jobs here. Which opens a whole can of worms in itself, cos I really don't know where I want to live in the US......so bloody confused.
I never understood the German thing...its a good idea for u to go to the conference to get a feel. I was thinking when u were gonna bail on Germany...:p
ReplyDeleteseriously no need to be confused...just see where things take u...u won't be locked down in one job anyway.