Yah, finally, and I mean FINALLY I finished all my course work. It's been a long time coming - 4 years. This term I took my last course, advanced biochem. There were only 3 students including myself and 2 professors which was rather interesting. I had no clue about all the biochem pathways and the professors expected that too. Yet they were surprised that I asked all the right questions and have looked through things before class! And just because I am in ChE, the professors assumed that I am smart.....ahh hmmm, not sure about that! Thankfully, I didn't prove them wrong, they said how good a job I've done (cf the others), but everyone would get good grades...I say wtf to the last part.
I have so much work to do, but I'm getting quite bored. I really like what I'm doing and it's possible implications in curing cancer, but I hate being stuck indoors. When I'm bored, I fantasize about what I'd rather be doing. I love cycling, I love the outdoors and I love travelling, what does this equal - why, a career in pro cycling of course!! That would be the life! But unfortunately, women pro cycling isn't very big, that's because they can never out compete men. On top of this, there is the bloody saddle problem. If there is a God, he is been quite unjust. Still, I think I'd go for it for at least 4 years to reach my full potential. And since cycling is purely physical, I'd need some mental stimulation too. So during my pro cycling career, I'd do lots of reading, mainly on human psychology. I'm fascinated by how complicated and contradictory the mind is. Like for me, due to circumstances when I was growing up, now I have trust issues. Whereas my sister is totally opposite, she easily gives trust away. In both situations, we have over compensated. The mind also seems contradictory. For instance, someone who has an alcoholic parent would subconsciously choose to be in a relationship with another alcoholic. It seems contradictory, but it's actually just them playing out childhood roles in order to overcome the trauma. In a sense, all the contradictory nature can be explained. I love trying to understand undoubtedly one of the most complicated phenomena in the world - the human mind. If I have a body double, I'd do exactly what I have proposed above - pursue a career in pro cycling while studying psychology. In fact, if I have less self control, I'd go and do it NOW! But since I am so bloody rational and all about the big picture, ie hoping that in my life I would contribute in changing human life for the better - so I'll stick with that. Sometimes I feel that I have such strong impulses which are kept at bay by my even stronger rationality.
On a side note, I just came back from a social with the club. I was talking with one of the club members. In the middle of the conversation, she said 'you are beautiful, your face.' I was shocked, she continued 'sorry but I have to say this...especially that smile of yours, every time I look at you, I'm taken by you...' While I just stood there feeling SO awkward and wishing the ground would swallow me up. I didn't know what to say other than 'thank you'. Yet to say thank you means that I agree with her which I don't. Oh and before you get all excited, she is a married women so there are clearly no motives :) Anyway, I'll try to forget about what she said or pretend it never happened so it won't be awkward the next time I see her.
On another side note, for my conference in Berlin, I'm going to do an oral presentation! I think I'll be the only one doing an oral in my track! They asked me for a biosketch and a photo to post on their website!! I'm stoked and so excited :D
I have so much work to do, but I'm getting quite bored. I really like what I'm doing and it's possible implications in curing cancer, but I hate being stuck indoors. When I'm bored, I fantasize about what I'd rather be doing. I love cycling, I love the outdoors and I love travelling, what does this equal - why, a career in pro cycling of course!! That would be the life! But unfortunately, women pro cycling isn't very big, that's because they can never out compete men. On top of this, there is the bloody saddle problem. If there is a God, he is been quite unjust. Still, I think I'd go for it for at least 4 years to reach my full potential. And since cycling is purely physical, I'd need some mental stimulation too. So during my pro cycling career, I'd do lots of reading, mainly on human psychology. I'm fascinated by how complicated and contradictory the mind is. Like for me, due to circumstances when I was growing up, now I have trust issues. Whereas my sister is totally opposite, she easily gives trust away. In both situations, we have over compensated. The mind also seems contradictory. For instance, someone who has an alcoholic parent would subconsciously choose to be in a relationship with another alcoholic. It seems contradictory, but it's actually just them playing out childhood roles in order to overcome the trauma. In a sense, all the contradictory nature can be explained. I love trying to understand undoubtedly one of the most complicated phenomena in the world - the human mind. If I have a body double, I'd do exactly what I have proposed above - pursue a career in pro cycling while studying psychology. In fact, if I have less self control, I'd go and do it NOW! But since I am so bloody rational and all about the big picture, ie hoping that in my life I would contribute in changing human life for the better - so I'll stick with that. Sometimes I feel that I have such strong impulses which are kept at bay by my even stronger rationality.
On a side note, I just came back from a social with the club. I was talking with one of the club members. In the middle of the conversation, she said 'you are beautiful, your face.' I was shocked, she continued 'sorry but I have to say this...especially that smile of yours, every time I look at you, I'm taken by you...' While I just stood there feeling SO awkward and wishing the ground would swallow me up. I didn't know what to say other than 'thank you'. Yet to say thank you means that I agree with her which I don't. Oh and before you get all excited, she is a married women so there are clearly no motives :) Anyway, I'll try to forget about what she said or pretend it never happened so it won't be awkward the next time I see her.
On another side note, for my conference in Berlin, I'm going to do an oral presentation! I think I'll be the only one doing an oral in my track! They asked me for a biosketch and a photo to post on their website!! I'm stoked and so excited :D
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